"In the morning when you finally go / And the nurse runs in with her head hung low / And the cardinal hits the window" - Sufjan Stevens, Casimir Pulaski Day
The hardest part for me has been the sense of alienation and unreality of this whole thing. I feel like I am walking through a wasteland in which most people have given over their sovereignty to the authorities mostly as a result of a campaign of psychological terrorism and isolation. They seem husks of their former selves...asleep...numb...averting their eyes from the (to me) obvious. This is all so big that people have a very hard time of wrapping their mind around it all, of taking it all in. A historian once said about WW2 that it was the biggest thing that ever happened in history. This might be as big or bigger but it is of a new and unprecedanted nature, so different from a conventional war that people do not really know how to think about it. It involves the power of the modern media to shape and control our minds at an unprecedented level.
It's also the deep insecurity of not knowing where this is all going. Is it going to get better or worse? I think it might all depend on the number of people who are willing to admit they were wrong and say so publically.
So...I just want to thank you for this wonderful essay. We need more than dissident doctors and scientists pointing out the bad science involved. We need artists and creative people like yourself exploring how much this has damaged our souls and to help people protect and regain their souls. I especially love the two paragraphs before and after your picture. We need to get our attitude right in order to sustain us through what I believe will be a very, very long journey to a just resolution.
Reading your post about your husband losing his job and then finding a new career, reminded me of something I’d forgotten: 20 years ago my husband was in the US Navy and had been assigned as an Admiral’s aide in Okinawa Japan where the Navy was requiring all family members living on base to be vaccinated against a mosquito borne virus prevalent on the island. Our 3 year old daughter was unvaccinated and we refused to give her this shot which even the CDC’s website warned has serious adverse events and recommended against it for travelers. My husband had initially accepted the assignment but turned it down after finding out about the shot requirement. We were concerned about repercussions. But God rewarded his faithfulness as a father protecting his child, and he was assigned to a job in the Pentagon which opened up a whole new career path and changed his life. God rewards those who live not by lies.
Oh my gosh this post touched me, thank you for sharingI was fortunate enough to lose my dad a couple years Pre Covid (weird to even say that). He had dementia and was living in a memory care center which my mom, who is still alive today, practically lived at while caring for him. They both would have died had she not been allowed to be there. It would have killed. A part of me too.
Everything that has happened has been so bat shit crazy, it’s really difficult to even comprehend. And my situation was better than most. I grieve a lot for everyone and everything that’s happened and you are so right, we are just beginning this process. That those responsible won’t admit it and at this point won’t’ be held accountable is extremely unhealthy. The public need a reckoning for this evil and I pray every day for it.
I love your videos, I’ve watched a lot of them and you’re doing good, important work So sorry about your cat. I had one who took a big piece of my heart with him hen he left. I wish I had let him die at home but I was hopeful the vet could help. Anyway, I”m glad I had him and was able to give him a life as I hope you feel about Coco too.
You took me back. Brilliant heart wrenching piece. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably and for your relentless effort to continue to bring us closer to the truth.
Thank you Kate for sharing this with us. I wasn't aware that you'd had a home birth. As someone who was a midwife for a few years in the late 70s, I applaud you and congratulate you on this wonderful achievement.
As a fellow cat person, I just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear that your kitty cat Coco has died. 💔🐈⬛
Great sharing of your love of Coco, your family losses and your renewed spirit. I lost my special cat, Squirt, in March. She had been my unconditional companion for almost 15 years. I took her and her sister, Roxy, into my life 15 years ago.They were black feral kittens abandoned and became special to me immediately. Roxy went missing after 3 years, Squirt remained until last March, these two taught me so much about unconditional love and caring. The covid hoax has made my stronger spiritually and physically. My Mom's favorite saying was the serenity prayer; 'God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference.'
Thank you Kate. Your videos and podcasts were a real help to me during the time of nonsense. And continues to be today. It made me feel like I wasn't alone, and there's nothing better than that during such dark times. May God bless you greatly in your endeavors!
This is brilliant and moving, Kate. Looks like the algorithms have been hiding your posts and videos from me for the past year, as I used to see you more often.
Kate
Love your posts. Read for years.
Remember what the wise man said . . .
“Happy are those conscious of their spiritual need, since the Kingdom of the heavens belongs to them.”
“Happy are those who mourn, since they will be comforted.
“Happy are the mild-tempered, since they will inherit the earth.’’
“Happy are those hungering and thirsting for righteousness, since they will be filled.
“Happy are the merciful, since they will be shown mercy. “
Happy are the pure in heart, since they will see God.’’
The ‘kingdom of heaven’ will make the earth a happy place to live.
He know pain and grief will be ended.
I believe it’s coming. Soon.
Thanks
Clay
Thank you for this Clay.
The hardest part for me has been the sense of alienation and unreality of this whole thing. I feel like I am walking through a wasteland in which most people have given over their sovereignty to the authorities mostly as a result of a campaign of psychological terrorism and isolation. They seem husks of their former selves...asleep...numb...averting their eyes from the (to me) obvious. This is all so big that people have a very hard time of wrapping their mind around it all, of taking it all in. A historian once said about WW2 that it was the biggest thing that ever happened in history. This might be as big or bigger but it is of a new and unprecedanted nature, so different from a conventional war that people do not really know how to think about it. It involves the power of the modern media to shape and control our minds at an unprecedented level.
It's also the deep insecurity of not knowing where this is all going. Is it going to get better or worse? I think it might all depend on the number of people who are willing to admit they were wrong and say so publically.
So...I just want to thank you for this wonderful essay. We need more than dissident doctors and scientists pointing out the bad science involved. We need artists and creative people like yourself exploring how much this has damaged our souls and to help people protect and regain their souls. I especially love the two paragraphs before and after your picture. We need to get our attitude right in order to sustain us through what I believe will be a very, very long journey to a just resolution.
Reading your post about your husband losing his job and then finding a new career, reminded me of something I’d forgotten: 20 years ago my husband was in the US Navy and had been assigned as an Admiral’s aide in Okinawa Japan where the Navy was requiring all family members living on base to be vaccinated against a mosquito borne virus prevalent on the island. Our 3 year old daughter was unvaccinated and we refused to give her this shot which even the CDC’s website warned has serious adverse events and recommended against it for travelers. My husband had initially accepted the assignment but turned it down after finding out about the shot requirement. We were concerned about repercussions. But God rewarded his faithfulness as a father protecting his child, and he was assigned to a job in the Pentagon which opened up a whole new career path and changed his life. God rewards those who live not by lies.
Kate, This is an amazing essay. Your testimony is all at once beautiful, shattering, inspirational, and hopeful.
"To be human
is to become visible
while carrying
what is hidden
as a gift to others."--David Whyte, from his poem What to Remember When Waking
Beautiful piece Kate. You're a warrior, a very kind empathetic and brave one!
Thanks John, I appreciate that so much.
Exceptional.
Has hard as it was and still is - from the start I said I wouldn’t let them break me or my family.
And now have to focus on “ glass half full” mentality. Life is still beautiful.
Oh my gosh this post touched me, thank you for sharingI was fortunate enough to lose my dad a couple years Pre Covid (weird to even say that). He had dementia and was living in a memory care center which my mom, who is still alive today, practically lived at while caring for him. They both would have died had she not been allowed to be there. It would have killed. A part of me too.
Everything that has happened has been so bat shit crazy, it’s really difficult to even comprehend. And my situation was better than most. I grieve a lot for everyone and everything that’s happened and you are so right, we are just beginning this process. That those responsible won’t admit it and at this point won’t’ be held accountable is extremely unhealthy. The public need a reckoning for this evil and I pray every day for it.
I love your videos, I’ve watched a lot of them and you’re doing good, important work So sorry about your cat. I had one who took a big piece of my heart with him hen he left. I wish I had let him die at home but I was hopeful the vet could help. Anyway, I”m glad I had him and was able to give him a life as I hope you feel about Coco too.
Thank you so much Tricia, I am sorry about your losses, I appreciate you sharing. <3 It is a piece of your heart that does not grow back, isn't it?
Yes, the losses sure do leave a hole, but I’ve also found the love we give to loved ones, including pets allows our hearts to grow bigger overall. :)
You took me back. Brilliant heart wrenching piece. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably and for your relentless effort to continue to bring us closer to the truth.
Thank you Kate for sharing this with us. I wasn't aware that you'd had a home birth. As someone who was a midwife for a few years in the late 70s, I applaud you and congratulate you on this wonderful achievement.
As a fellow cat person, I just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear that your kitty cat Coco has died. 💔🐈⬛
Yet she is still with you, as are your beloved grand parents, always will be, and this beautiful writing is proof of that.
This is a beautiful essay. Thank you.
Thank you! It helps.
Truly beautiful Kate. God bless you all. x
Great sharing of your love of Coco, your family losses and your renewed spirit. I lost my special cat, Squirt, in March. She had been my unconditional companion for almost 15 years. I took her and her sister, Roxy, into my life 15 years ago.They were black feral kittens abandoned and became special to me immediately. Roxy went missing after 3 years, Squirt remained until last March, these two taught me so much about unconditional love and caring. The covid hoax has made my stronger spiritually and physically. My Mom's favorite saying was the serenity prayer; 'God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference.'
Thank you Kate. Your videos and podcasts were a real help to me during the time of nonsense. And continues to be today. It made me feel like I wasn't alone, and there's nothing better than that during such dark times. May God bless you greatly in your endeavors!
This is brilliant and moving, Kate. Looks like the algorithms have been hiding your posts and videos from me for the past year, as I used to see you more often.